am i ?

that question , is sticking in my head.
kebanyakkan kawan ku mengatakan , aku ini , melebih had memberi kepada dia, terlalu sayangkan dia , sedangkan dia sepeti tidak melayani aku .
patut kah aku mendengar kata mereka?
aku mesej dengan dia .
" b..b busy?"
tidak ada balasan.
tunggu.
tunggu..
tunggu..
tunggu..
hampir pukul 12, dia balas.
" soe. b ator moto tek "
hmm. hairan , ada kah orang mengatur motor mereka dari pukul 5+ hingga 11 malam?
hmmmm.
akhirnya , sis kinah ku call dia .
dan memarahin dia.
kinah menyuruh aku bercakap luahan hati ku , tetapi ku takut akan melukakan hati dia.
:(

dia meminta maaf kepada ku.
tak pa, aku tahu dia sygkan ku.
tetapi adakah dia menghargai aku seperti ku menghargai nya ?
hmm.

:/

biarlah.aku masih mencintai nya slama-lamanya.
" i love you no matter what forever"

Puck You

Fuck You Fuck You Very Very Much.
i watched " Knowing " .
and yet , i am still confusebut interesting to see though.
grr. School tidak lama lagi dibukak .
homework , ke mari kau .
memang datang lagi ke aku. membuat aku pening aje.

whoa . :0 Tidak sedar , fatin itu kazen saya.
omgah .
aku mimpi fat bitch . NIGHTMARE.
and yes , aku berteriak. macam crita hantu jak muka dia.

wahhahahaha. ambek kauu.

shit , i am so bored.
boredom has landed on flight shitairlines.



i love this song .
walaupun jiwang , tapi untuk menenang hati juga .
haahaaa.
sepa frust ? sila dengar lagu ini .
hahahaha

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. i miss my boyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~
sayangg ! I MISS YOU!!!!!!!
:)

his mine , i'm his . get it ?
bitch , don't try what your not supposed too fat bitch .
his mine , and more , his not even meant yours and he DON'T EVEN WANT TOO.
yes , it's the fact .
you know why i am talking ?
it's not fair for you only can talk bad things to everyone. how bout my turn ?
takkan lah aku diam tengok kau bercakap macam sial tentang aku.
betul tak ?
bodoh .
HIS MINE , I M HIS .
GET IT YOU ASSHOLE ?
shuh you preety ugly fat bitchy face.

sayang sayang ! :) i love you ! wee:D

"ohemgee.you stole my heart !"

WADAFAKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!

WTF ?!
ouch .

Hey boredom. whatsup ?

Yes, i am so bored and hell yeah, today , i was just making my ass hurt sitting on the floor and make my eyes hurt infront of the TV and Online Whole Day Long.
And yes ,my ass still hurts. Fuck .

and yeah , i fought with my ex. HAHA.
he told me , "Kurang ajar jwak grk ktk oo . kdk lebih tua dri kmk jak . ya bok kurang ajar!"
pa kah . hahaha. nya da berhak bah , sebab kau ya pejal glak .
Sorry to say , i DID Once love you , and now , I HATE you seriously after all incidents.
and your stupid and pathetic freak who likes to be the boss of EVERYTHING.
AND YOUR NOT.
kau pikir kau tu sempurna sangat kah mahu mengatakan sayang ku ?
aku ini bukannya SAMPAH boleh DIBUANG DAN DIAMBIL .
bodoh .
harap pelir kau mandol .

Damn Damn Damn .
I missed my SAYANG SO SO SO SO MUCH.
sayang , i miss you so much sayang .:(

urgh . * garuk-garuk palak*

Oh FUCK . HIS HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.
yes , fuck you for being so hot .grr.

Finally , i watched Twilight ! urgh . Last time , i bought the CD and the FUCKING ASSHOLIC CD didn't work .
IT HAS NO COLOURS?!!!!??!!!
and it can't be return .
pathetic.
and once again , FINALLY I CAN WATCHED TWILIGHT !!!!!!
Rate till 5 , 5 / 5 .
it rocks . seriously .

and it makes it Batu ( Rocks) , The Fucking Hot Characters .
espeacially , Edward Cullen .

I miss my hubby badly badly.
grr.
MISSING HIM SO MUCH MUCHY.

" Can i have a bit of you , yes , your love ? can ? oh thanks . I love you"

tinggi tinggi gunung wbulu nyanyian kami.

me & my sis kinah . :)
to the people who disturbs her life, dont even try.
me & akma & kinah were wondering SOMEONE why she likes to disturbs people's life?
espeacially , kinah's life and more.
why ? you don't have any job to do kah dude?
how bout , bak kata azizi , prostitude blowing job suits your standards.
no use of you bh. by doing all bow to you . you think your god is it ? bodoh kah apa .
sedar lah kau tu . kau tu manusia . tiada berbeza.
hidup semua orang tidak sempurna , dan juga kau .
jadi ? pahal mahu menjurikan hidup org ? sedangkan hidup kau tu tak sempurna seperti orang lain .
huh ? baik lagi kau gago hidup kau tu rather gago hidup orang lain .

SOT .
bahaya ,penyakit sot boleh berjangkit.
mahu ? mari join .

yeah , memang lelah . panas terik lagi . haus haus .
kerja kerja pada bulan posa . membuat org lebih haus dan lapar.
hahahahaa
" lapar mek " - akma
" makan jom . "- aku
"posaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..."-akma
"lekak syaitan xda , mek ganti ngn kinah "- mek
*ketawa *

hahahhaha*merati gambar azizi*
suk gila ku bila melihat gambar azizi. hahaha
rindu bahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
x phm kh ?huhu
rindu rindu rindu rindu .

membeli reload celcom dgn kinah di mini market dengan fatin , akma , dan kinah .
hahahahaa. hampir jatuh di dalam longkang . shaddap u .
ceeka slamber . akma emo . kinah ceria.
bagai-bagai emosi .
hahahaha

kinah pendek dri ku. ku pendek dri akma . akma pendek dri fatin.
ahahaha. tapi kinah lebih tinggi dri ku beberapa inci , adoh .
asa pendek ku brdri tepi mereka espeacially fatin .-.-''
tinggi bh dia. lompat lompat ! makan calcium ! ( bak kata akma )
hahahahha

eeee. aku rindu azizi tahu ? tahu ? aku cinta dia tahu ? tahu ?
good .

" i love you just like the ocean.countless."

kerja - kerja kami pada hari puasa .
akma dan aku .
:)


aku dan sis kinah ku :)
heee. sepa mok ngaco nya ? siap ku sumbat taik unta.
besar ya oo. boh main .

ex ku mesej ku kelmarin.
suroh ku mendengar lagu " sofaz- salahku"
i don't care lah dude.
i'm azizi's property . not urs anymore babe.
even how much you bagged , i will not accept you .
i know your gonna repeat it all again . watever.
azizi is so much speacial in my life now . :)
dia lah mengubati hati ku after my assholic ex done .
and that's why , i love my sayang azizi:)

ew ew . that fat bitch mengata2 org jak keja. xda keja len gk babe? posa tok . tong sampah dosa kau tu , penuh babe. buang2 lah .bakarkan dosa tu . jangan nak recycle balik .
kalau org mengata dia , dia pergi warning mcm pa jak . bak kata zz " sa kwat"
kalau dia mengata org , boleh lh .
bodoh , tu tak adil lah butuh .
nyaman kenak cop butuh ? sedap ? bagus . :)

cop sondal lagi ngam ngn muka kau tu.
Hahahaha

pa mahu membuat plan-plan tak guna kau tu ? it won't work .
because of you , everyone's life ruin .
mengalahkan bitch jak u .
org famous , dgn rupa , and pangkat mereka di hidup , bukan famous dengan dibenci. malu nyeeee.
" kalau saya malu saya"
stop ur big fat blablashitting mouth of you .
it's just makin people calling you bitch , and yes you are.
:)
why you want to disturb people's life sedangkan org x kaco idup kau ?
bodoh nye.

eeee. i miss my sayang.:)
heee. i love him much much.
:)
his mine , im his.

" I love my sayang azizi so muchh muchhh"
:*

puki puki puki puki oooo puki puki.

i feel weird.
Kadang-kadang , kita telah memberi satu peluang , tetapi tidak dihargai.
bodohnye.
oh ya , ex ku mintak return . dan aku reject . * senyum sinis*
apa ? aku tidak suka dia lagi . sebab , dia hanya mahu memainkan perasaan ku dan menggunakan aku. lagi pun, hati ku hanya ke laki ku , azizi. aku hanya menyayangi nya selama-lamanya.
walaupun aku selalu membuat dia marah & sedih , huhu . dia tetap menyayangi ku.
*terharu*
aku pun juga menyayangi dia .:)

yeah , aku tidak dpt posa. * suk * dpt makan chocolate dalam aisbok.ahhahahaha.
pahal? ku dtg bulan. SHADAP U.

mar:"ku mok makan :("
aku:"ae.sian.maakann gak . tapok2. xda org tauk ya.juh2."
mar:"setan xda , kau jadi setan"
aku: * membaca laptop sambil ketawa*

abg ku accident kelmarin. oleh orang mabuk.
then , today accident gk rah parkson.
whoa.
ibuku pula mengepak kedak apa jak.aku pun menutup telinga ku supaya tidak bengali oleh pet pot pet pot ibu ku.
kadang-kadang , kita tidak sedari rindu kita terlalu tinggi terhadap orang yang kita sayangi.
aku kangen sama sayang hubby ku.:(
rindu tahap DEWA aku ni. mana ubat rindu ku? oh ya, dia.huuhuu.
eeee. kelmarin sanggup dia cari mana rumah ku.heee:D

"honey. umah honey 2 tingkat,pintu chocolate,warna puuteh ya nak?"
"urr..aok. gney tauk ?"
"hehe. ujong jalan da gerey cendol ya nak ?"
"aie. aok . gney taukk tokk?"
" hehe. tgh kayo2 dpn umah honey tok"

hehe.:) sanggup cri rumah ku. maka umah aku & hubby ku jauh.
cuba dekat. huhu. takpe , takpe, jauh dri mata, dekat di hati bak kata hubby ku.
:)

ada kah anda tahu? aku cinta azizi?
tahu ? bagus.
bijak sungguh kau.

oh yeah , lupak ku.
Selamat Berposa ! tahan nafsu oi oi ! :D

" don't you see? he belongs to me.:) "

hello there lil madafaka

Yes . i guess Ignorance is the best way rather than hearing your big mouth wide open blablashitting there and here. Whatever Major Loser .
it's so not fair that you can talk whatever you like . how bout us that you talked about? neh . you won't gave a chance. when we are brave to talk , then you shut ur assholic mouth. Whatever.
why you've had to warn there here so that all of human being are afraid of you?
it's like , you wanted to be god.
babe, no way . One day you will get what you did to people more worster.
and i wish that it will happen . Will .
sometimes, people stop listening . and that's why i blog so that they can read what's in my heart.
you've don't have any problems , and why you wanted to make problems to everybody ?
haha. it's quite funny you know .
last time , you've got a lot of friends arounf you.
and now , where are they ? all of them ran away and left you.
because of you making problems.
bak kata hazik anak amin xD , " nya ya eksen glak . sa kwat "
bak kata zz , " pukek nya lobos . nindak sa branie. "
bak kata akma " ewww. "
bak kata dovina " sondal nya ya "
bak kata amy , " ptt lah kakak ku x suroh brkawan ngn nya ."
bak kata my sis " chalie mena nya ya eh "

where are your friends ? all gone. and it's all because of you . being too over-braved and over-eksen .
babe , tong sampah dosa kau tu sudah penuh . taubat lah bodoh .
nak kata pandey x juak , nak kata bodo , x juak .
susah-susah .
:)

yes. we united back ! heee.:D
i syg him ok ?:) only him ? FAHAM ?
Bijak-bijak.
kepada ex ku , oi. ku x syg ko . ko butoh glak .
pegi kau membutoh kat empuan nok sama taraf ngn kau . aku xmok ngn kau.
aku syg azizi jak okey ? faham babi ?
makseh .

hubbyy !hubby ! i love you ! forever & ever.
:)

"there's no space in my heart because its all full of you , dear:)"

Maybe .

Happy Fasting / Ramadhan to all Muslims :)
Jangan bukak peti sejuk atau pergi ke dapur .
nanti berguntur perut melihat & mencium bau makanan.
wahahahahahah

If someone Loves you , they will accept for who you are & and what you are no matter what.
But then , some people don't.
maybe this girl is too obsessed and addicted to him.
and futher more, it takes time people to changed.
but i thought you accept me for who i am . maybe , i was wrong.
i used to be smilling seeing you . but you made me Faking It.
but then , no matter what i still love you & accept you for who you are.
eventhough you are a high tempered. i still love you.
i don't want our relationship end or became a battle field.
Yes, i just want a happy story . can i ? :( preety please. i want you to be mine forever.
Some people, they never judge their loves one because they loved them so much .
but sometimes, people changed their mind or something . i just don't know .

I wish i can be Just like the skies.
that nobody can judge on and change it and let it just be and looked up for ..
when it rains , we just feel.
when its sunny , we just see.
when its dark , we just kept quite.
when its night , we just see the stars upon the skies .

It's times like these that i need a hit on the head or just a simple stab at the heart. Or a nice little cut on the wrist or a beautiful poke in the eye. Times when everything good turns bad, everything bad might just turn worst. When hope seems dead and happiness waves goodbye without looking back.my Life starts to be colourless. Just in case when everything fades away,I'm sure it will hurt.
Im not crazy.
Im just sad.


i knew that someday , you asked me to changed.
when i'm with you , i felt like .. it's me & you.
but maybe you don't like myown self anymore. :/

i hate this bullshits conquering me now. really , ihate this .
i hate this sadness and confussions.
it sucks you know that ?
urgh .
Now, i felt like a drawing paper on my face drawing a fake smile to everyone .
but when you tear that drawing , i'm sure you can see the opposite of it .

I love you just the way you are

hye . nama saya sheika . gelaran saya ceeka.
saya tgh happy sekarang. sebab....
HABIS UJIAN .
skema bunyi main saya kamu.
yesss. Ujian sudah tamat ! aman palak !
pagi tadi , pergi ke sekolah . bapa ku hantar ke dalam.
" bapak. hantar luar jak"
*bertepon *
"pak !"
*masok dalam*
"-.-''

Ujian memang susah . memang . kalau hidup ? lagi lah.
kadang2. kita tidak dapat mengubah sikap seseorang itu yang kita sayangi .
kadang2. kita hanya senyum dan bersyukur pa yang ada.
i just love you just the way you are.
how bout my way? i guess neh .

maybe it's my fault it happen . i'm sorry .
maybe , i need to change and be someone that you wanted.
but it will be feel like a plastic on my face.
just like doing a surgery attitude.
yes , i know i'm sensitive .SUPER. and i like to merajuk all the time .
and mostly , im a cryer.i thought your the one who only cares.
now i knew , you ain't like it . maybe , no one it's the best answer for the question.
"who cares bout me when i cry ?"

sometimes, we just take it without any regrets. sometimes with regrets.
but me , i have no regrets taking you.
YES. i have a problem attitude, like to merajuk all the time .
i thought you knew that , and you don't care bout that last time .
why now you don't tell me that you don't like me to merajuk ?
hmm .

It's a fact , girlfriends like to merajuk . x sah mun xda .
hmm .

Sometimes , i wish i can changed but it's hard .
=/

neh.i love you forever. and that's matter bout me & you .

sometimes, i feel like a plasticine on my face just draw a happy smile but actually , behind that plasticine , a sad smile just appear.

btw . i saw this girl . omg .
hahaha. tengok ! tengok ! siapa pulak yang potong macam tu juga ?
lawakkk nyeee.
:)

babe , haha. no way babe. he still won't like you lah with your attitude . TAKE AND THROW.
at least , i take and keep and appreaciate.
not like a cheapo like you , take and throw.
no wonder, your ex warn me not to be near with you .

babe, cermin kan dulu lah your face babe.:)
bukan mahu menganok , hanya mengata kenyataannya.
:)
i don't like when people disturb and intefere my life and judge it and try to ruin it. i hate it a lot.
and mostly, i hate when SOMEONE ruin my relationship.
I REALLY REALLY FUCKING HATE IT .

get it ?:) can you fuck off from my life ?
layan lah hidup kau sendiri. hidup tak sempurna , ada hati nak kacau hidup orang lain.
x alah2.

what a cheapo like you .
mengalahkan bitch & sondal tepi jalanan .
Taraf perempuan tepi Public Bank Jual Pukek babe .
"Kalau saya malu saya"
:)

i love blue, just like the skies, because it reminds me of you:)

Rainbows

we noty but we study.
tengok ? contohi lah kami .
exam tidak lama lagi melanda. kebabian. woahh.:o bak kata akma " kepepekan.kesusuan."
yeap, dia pegi ke rumah ku untuk belajar( p main facebook & blog)
hahahahaha. rajin sungguh kan ? contohi lah budak-budak pelajar rajin . (konon)

hee.
rindu nye sama budak botak itu.:D rindu dengan rambut panjang dia. tetapi dia tetap kiut.hahaha:D
Photographer : akma
aku, akma, kinah , hubbyku, chester pergi belajar ke pustaka.
tetapi , aku dan zz lain ke tempatnya.hahahhaha.belajar pa ndak kah oo ( dikata kinah)
hahaha. :D

yeap, terjumpa si bujad itu , yang dikenali di facebook NAMAKU LUKE DOUGLAS.
si arif itu.
hahahaa.
yang berpakaian baju melayu dengan sabok. kawen kah pa tak ya rif?:P
hahahhahaha. sian dia keseorangan.

:D

ilovespendingtimewithmyraibows.
I love em alot espeacially hubby ku sayang.heee;D
bak kata si fat bitch dikata akma&ceeka, XOXOXO.
AHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH
*polah cara jalan burit tunggek fat bitch*
whoa.
:O
ayoyo. zz polah itu middle finger dedicate to fat bitch. SYABAS ! SYABAS !
*applause*

"your heart beat makes me calm"

tinggi tinggi babi terbang akhir nya gugok keberatan .

yes, we make up again . we go ups and down , but no matter what we still make up.:)
woo:0 suprise to hear someone want to ruin off my relantionship and take him away.wooo: 0
hmm .:) it's quite funny . just sluts & bitches & Cheapo & and a Bimbo does that .
i wonder, there's come the word "key-po" from those guys in my life. why do they want? omgah . she thinks that my hubby wants her is it ? hahahahaha. let's laugh. i faced so much worster that not only just like you .doesn't mean you've got everything means that your so powerfull . doesn't means you've the olders from the school helps you means that your so powerfull .
it's just bullshit of you .
your just bringing them and scares everyone in Stjoe so that Everyone can respect you .
i thought you told my hubby " love can't be forced"
so , what happen to that? and you tried to take him from my hands . babe , his mine . and im his . so , he won't like that if someone disturbs our life.
and you know that you won't get him right ? i wouldn't tell why because you know why.
as if i don't know anything what your doing and planning there because i am not there .
it's just sluts and bitches do those. if me , i woyld be so ashamed of my self and hide my face in a paper box.
babe , when you disturbed and make my friends misserable , i would not just sit down and see . they are my part of life, means you disturbed my life too . so , anything happen to them , we will just wait & see what happen to you :) .

and oh yeah , i do feel scared of you last time . after i knew your weakness . Hahaha. i faced so much worster and meaner people not other than you only . your just a piece of rubbish for me .:)

my friends are so valuable to me and so meaningful to me . so , don't disturb them , as ALMOST STUDENT THERE CALL YOU , fat bitch .:)
your traps i would not fall in . so , just give up . your life is not even perfect, ada hati mok ngaco idup orang . it's just no use . i think it's just better you make your life more perfect than you "KEYPO" other people's life . and one more thing , ever how hard you try , he would not like you and his mine forever . your nasty & slutty & bitchy lies would not work on us babe . :)

CHEAPO BITCHY ASSHOLIC BIMBO .

remember who faced you that day ? without them ? haha. quite funny lah you hiding and running who you faced that day .

Yes, your preety . Preety Ugly . Without Brains . Yes, that's called a bimbo .
babe, kalau aku malu kowh . brapa murah kau mahu kacau hak orang ?
anok lah , fitnah lah , hasut lah , i don't care anymore about you.
your just nothing , yes the word you've said to me when my boy asked me to be NICE to you.
oh my god. it's just wasted of time i be a plastic being nice , polite to you.
AND WHAT I GET ? shit of you.

ew. cheapo . taraf empuan tepi pub jual burit*jobo* & pukek .

and oh yeah , my boy say " empuan 1sen lah nya ya . mok ambik bie dari bby. boh harap ."

:)
there you go .

MAN= mohammad azizi nazirin
hee:)
sayang ! sayang ! sayangg ! muahssss !:)

"his mine , i m his ."

bangpa menelefoni aku kelmarin.
conversatinon di telefon
zakiah@bangpa: hello. sheika tok ?
aku: bodo.ko pikir sepa gk ?
zakiah@bangpa: boring ku tok.huhu.
aku:bodo.pk pa tek. pa ko kol ku tok?
zakiah@bangpa : xda.boring jak.ehhe.da gossip terhangat x?
aku:bodo kau tok.
*mak memanggil*
aku: oi.lak ko kol bha. chow lok.

:) rindu aku escape bersama nya tiap gerko pegi pantai atau pergi ke Ma Baker.mala mintak blanja anak bolhassan ya.hahahaha

urm.fight with my boy.urgh.*frust*
pukul 3, telefon berbunyi, *lagu wind blows*
"cayankkk! coe...... "and byk gk actually nya tulis.but it's between me &him. jangan mahu gago. orang tertentu je boleh tau.
hmm.
betul kata ku ngn akma.
" phl semua kae tok? tak kae. kinah kae. adoh2. bahaya tok"
tengok2, malam tu aku kelaie dengan lakie ku.hmmmmmm.:(
i hate when things go down.urghhh.
-.-''

aku frust gilak alu semua mok dimakan aku dirumah.
"kau tok kurus kering .p makan seperiuk pun boleh"
*molah muka sedih maseh*
maggi (checked)
mee sedap ( checked)
biskut (checked)
gula-gula setin ( Checked)
Nasi ( Checked)
keropok ( checked)
Roti canai ( checked)

yooooooooooooooo. shit.

wat do i care? FUCK . I AM SO FUCKING SAD.urghhh.
babi.sial.pukek.

jobo.
hahahaha
hmm.where's my sis??urm.4 days sudah.emm..
why she ran?urgh.*stress*

oh shit. stress conquers my brain and me now. how shitty is that? 100 %
fork.

neh, just smile whole day like crazy . shit.ish.hahaha

Fool ness. i am bored. can anyone give me some more candy to chew off my stress? or chewing gum to kill all the hateness?hahahahahaaaha. who wants one ? Raise your legs ! both of ur legs !


"i love you and i really meant it.:("

mayau itu pusak . pusak itu kucing .

Morning my mom woke me up . then , urut- urut . geli rasa kalau diurut ke kaki.
"kau tok kdak ulat ! tergelik sia , gelik ctok !"
*blush*
yeye . ritok 7th anniversary ! wee~:)
I L O V E Y O U A Y A N G ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! !!
:)


if my friends , yes my REAL friends have any problems. i stand for them and helped them.
:)
sian my friend, her boy layan other girl . siapa tidak sakit hati kalau laki kta melayan perempuan lain?
betul tidak ? *BETUL*
hope she cheer up :)

my boy seem lately busy right now. hmmph.neh, busy with his boyfriends i guess.neh,let him be.busy with studies i guess or busy with his hobby, motorcycle or watever..
whoa. H1N1 being more worster and worster .
wow.
let's be ninja running all places wearing masks.:D
wuhuu.
my mom bought about 100+ mask . and been played and thrown by us. -.-''
shhh !
Muahahahahahahahaha.

"i love you, 3 words make 2 hearts united"

MAK ! ku mok azizi jadi laki ku ! .
:D

I <3>does anyone knows how i know what's love?
it is because of him.hee:D

i love my sayang so much forever & ever.
Don't ever try to steal him from me.
mun x, ku merik pokok kelapak ke dalam jobo mu.
Paham wahai babi yang mahu merampas dia dari aku?
Bagus . :)

dia jantung hati ku. dia adalah sinaran hidup ku. dia adalah bintang-bintang di langit yang menghiasi langit dengan cinta aku & dia.

I love him so much .
:) Forever & ever & ever.

7th anniversary tommorow me & him !
hehee. :)
I Love you hubby ! so so muchh ! :)
so thank full i have a boy just like you that really care and love me for who i am . :)
i love you no matter what and where i am .

I LOVE YOU , AYANK !! LOVE YOU ! LOVE YOU ! LOVE YOU ! LOVE YOU !
no one can replace my speacial boy just like you .
who understands me . who loves me for who i am . no matter what happen , i love you just the way you are.
we go ups and down because of our misunderstood problems between us, but lastly we united back together and we become more stronger & stonger.
no one can replace you. no one can make us appart.
:)

i'm sad, down , angry , your the one who makes me happy and brightens up my day back .
your hug and kisses warms me up and make me forget my problems in my life.
thousands of words can describe how much i love you.
but i love you is just enough to represents a thousand i love you's.;)

first time i saw you , it was quite funny. it was first day of school , i was walking alone to the hall way to the inside of school. then you came. " Hi.. mok mek neman cne tak mok pegi ?"
i answered rudely that time , " cibai . boh kaco mek bah". then , i went to the dewan with my friends. i was wondering who was watching me that time, him. Hahahha. i felt weird. lols.
then , me & my friends was lost and don't know where's Block C , yes , i love that place. lots of memories. huhhu. oh yeah, continue to the story. yes, he walked straight and saw me & my friends was watching the map of the school . sakai lah i see the sorrounding of the school. then i walked alone. then he disturbed again."mok mek neman tak deng ? mek tauk cne block c!"
i asnwered." cne?"..he brought me to block d. adeh. i was mad lah that time. lols.:) then he keep asking me my phone number but i ignored. then , one of his friends gave my number to him. so, he said he was happy cause he got my number.

hee. than , after a few iincident clashing with SOMEONE, i like my hubby and he became my boyfriend on 14.01.09
heee.:) tidak sedari pula orang yang ku marah dan disumpah oleh aku (sorry sayang) , akan menjadi lelaki yang menyangi ku dan ku menyanyagi nya dengan sepenuh hati ku.:)

he took care and loved me . i love his drug that he gave me, that he gave me all the time, His love. My addiction. can't stop. :)

I Love you hubby . :) Forever & ever ~

eh lo ak ko sa yang ko ?

Yes ! Finally i changed my Header !
hahaha. pa kah ?
oh yah. pagi bangun awal pukul 6 .
*TuT TuT*
"oi.da msj !"
bukak mata, membuat muka masam bangun awal pagi.
well, muka orang malas bangun pagi dikatakan tek nak?
oh yah , "cayankk ! coe trtdo marekk ! huhuuhhhuu!"
aku: oh k.xpa.hehe.no worries.xpa ya dear. i don't mind.:)
lakie ku: hehe.senyum lok..:)
aku: :) ayank.cyg demam bha. gney tok?
lakie ku: owh.ae.mam2 ubat.
aku: ok. cyg demam rindu ayang.lak ayg sembuhkan cyg k.hehe:D

dan besambung lah crita .:)

kaki ku sakit. kimak .yeahh. ini dia ! cake kegemaran ku di secret recipe
cheese cake <3>syurga cinta
ada lelaki dalam cerita tu, orang tua tu, abg ku mengatakan..
" ae, muka pekemil dlm crita ya kdk orang tua kat luak baaaaaaa!"
aku: -.-'' pak kamil . bukan pekemil.
nya: AHHAHHHAAHHAHAHAHA. i org puteh . u org hitam .
aku: bodo. pa beza kulit kau ngn aku. mat salleh x juak . babuk mena kau tok.
nya :plentey jak ba. mengepak kau tok.
aku : -.-''

Pressure orang terhadap ku membuat ku berasa resah dan rimas bah.ishh.budus.cuba problem ya semua x kan terjadi? sakit ati ku dipolah orang begitu.
hairan , kalau suka orang , takkan ke mana-mana kalau ada jodoh . tetap berjumpa.
tapi , seorang lelaki ini memaksa seorang perempuan ni. darah daging ku.
pelik . huru- hara dibuat nya.
pecah belah . arghhh .. Sialan juga laki itu ! aku sekarang ni confuse dengan keadaan ku dan sekeliling ku. nak ikut kata sorang tu , salah . nak ikut sorang lagi , salah juga . nak ikut sorang lagi tu , sama juga. yang mana lah aku harus dengari ? semua lain-lain crita. confuse bah.

i love the times. my boy punya fav lagu jiwang . hehehe.:)
i love taylor swift . santek ba . no wonder my boy crazy with her songs. *jeles* x)
ahhahahaahaha.

aarrrgghh .
.________________.

bak kata kawan ku " bole x babi terbang ?? mok nangga ! mok nangga ! "
-.-''

hahahahhaha

"I love you and i really meant it :)"

tanpa M.J , tidak ada ini.
ibu ku dengar lagu beat it, laju dia berlari.wow. kagum ku dengan dia yang sangat fanatik dengan M.J.
dia mengatakan M.J itu idola dia sejak kecil lagi. ku pun terdiam saja.-.-''

orang kerdil menari . * kagum *
oh yeahhhhh .
ku sudah menukar url blog ku ini di atas sebab-sebab tertentu.
yang ku boleh katakan " wo ow. kamu ketahuan berpancaran lagiii"
hahahahhahahaha.

aku peduli apa?
yay. abang ku telah membeli secret recipe cheese cake untuk aku
:D
sedap sungguh . meleleh air liur ku memandang.

waaaa.grk ku busy.ishh.
huhu.
bersabar sahaja . takpa . nanti dia msej katakan hati ku.kalau tidak, huhuuhuuhuuuh.

goodluck to all for exams
*polah muka mala*
ya, ibu ku dengan sungguh nya dia melecture ku tentang exam .
adoh .
nak belajar, tapi hati rasa malas.
bagaimana lah ?
hahahahhaa.
takpa, tgk buku sudah cukup . *BUKAN BACA*

omg. i put a million kg of sugar. you still win the sweetest thing in my life.

:)

Muka aku BLUR
We are a camwhore

dia sengaja hendak mengeso muka lakie pizza hut.
ishh.
ahahahhah.
xpa , azizi tetap di hati seensem2 mana lelaki lain.
dia tetap lakie ku.:D
yerr. adakah ini di laptop mar? jeng3.
Stim Mar. xDsudah terbukti ..xD

aku rindu hubby ku , azizi. <3>
Mengapa ye sesetengah orang hanya memikirkan kemahuan sendiri/pentingkan diri sendiri tanpa memikirkan situasi orang.Hanya mahu kebahagian tersendiri tanpa kebahagian orang.tetapi akhirnya, terjatuh juga lepastu , datang ke mari balik.
mahu kah menerimanya selepas dikhianati dan difitnah dengan cerita-cerita dongeng nya dari mulut bau dia itu?
taubat lah babe.tong dosa kau penuh tu dengan fitnah-fitnah kau terhadap orang.
tak sangka, baik-baik di depan , belakang macam penikam pisau ke belakang kita.
wow, hebatkan pelakon terhandal itu ? Bravo , bravo.
rasanya , kalah anak wayang di astro ria tu.

cinta itu sayang
sayang itu kasih
kasih itu tulus
tulis itu setia
setia itu janji
janji itu tunai
tunai itu selama nya
:)

Faham ? Terima kasih.

Burit pusak ku bau ambi pur. wow. sungguh menakjubkan.

"Give me that drug that i am so addicted to, Your love."

same colour , same heart.

pagi bangun , terdengar bunyi lakie ku menelefoni ku.
Handphone buruk yang dipinjam ibu ku.
"Tut Tut"
"Morning cyg.:) jalan rit0wkk!hee."
aku pun bangun , dan mereply mesej nya.
"aOwk dear.:)"

ku pun mandik , berkemas .
tiba-tiba pula dengar kata lakie ku yang kinah tidak dapat mengikuti kami berdua berjalan.
aku pun bergegas menelefon kinah.
" tak kuar? kuar lah . lak lah mek ambik tak"
akhirnya , dapat juga.

pukul 12 , terjumpa nigel di pustaka.
jiwang sungguh dia.
" aku masih mencintai nya.why nya mok nuduh aku curang? *mata beraek* . maka ku bruk jumpa grk nya kuar ngn empuan len rah parkson tek"
*mata nangis*
wtf? omg. aduh .. sian ku nangga nya.
Hen.. i xmok kata or say hasut kau , but it's true.
aku&nigel&kinah menunggu lakie ku kat pustaka.
* TUT TUT*

" cyg, tunggu kat dewan suarah keh:) cooeee."
-.-''
adeh.aku pun pergi ke dewan suarah.
" aik . ney lakie ku tok?"
belom paduhal datang
aku pun menunggu sambil membaca buku cina .
walaupun tidak faham, buat-buat faham.
banyak buku cina , banyak cina .
aku pun bertanya " che ke se me ?"
"apa tok ?"
"pameran buku cina"
*senyum ketawa*
nigel pun berkata , buku banyak bau cina .
Paloi.
xD

Tiba-tiba , datang budak berambut pendek, hampir botak , lakie ku !
aik ? rambut pendek ?
adehh. dipotong guru disiplin.
xpaa, asal hati masih sama.:)
baju nya biru , aku pun biru.
sama-sama biru .
hehe:D

Berjalan , Berkepit mekduak .
"bby..b demam.."
"demam pa b ?" kata ku.
"demam rindu bby.."
*senyum*

"tok nyembuh b.."
*cium*
:)

pukul 5, balik ke pustaka.
terjumpa budak kecil kiuttttttttttttttttttttttttttt betul.
" anak tadwak !!!!!!!"
"haha.:)"

spend time sama dia lamak-lamak.
"oi.kmk balit lok"
kinah berkata...
*kami angguk-angguk*

lama-lama lah aku dan dia happy-happy spend time.
pukul 6 , " b..keta dtg..balit lok keh?"
"owh kk.:) slm lok .."
*salam*
tiba-tiba, *tarit tangan terus beri ciuman kepadaku*
senyuman nya sungguh menyejukkan hati ku.:)

happy nyeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
:)
abang ku menyebok.
:)
semua orang diberi kebebasan untuk meluahkan & ekspreasi diri nya tersendiri.
yes, aku bersetuju.
Takkan org yang mengawal kita seperti patung apa yang harus kita buat , apa yang kita harus pakai, apa yang harus kita cakap.
aku bukan patung untuk dikawal .
aku pun manusia yang berfikir.takkan ku hanya mengikut arahan orang yang diberi kepada ku sedangkan mereka tidak mahu menolong aku selepas ku menolong mereka?
"polah kerja tok"
*diam*
"buang sampah pakey aku. kau nak rajin"
*-,-''*
"angkat buku ku dolok"
*emotioneless*

kalau ku minta tolong kepada mereka , wahhhh. beribu alasan diberi .
:)
nak katakan dan luahkan dalam hati , nanti taknak berkawan .
kawan apa tu ?
Hairan ku sungguh dengan sifat-sifat yang sebegini .
mereka mungkin tidak faham apa situasi kita .
kita mintak tolong , tak nak .
susah-susah baru crik aku mintak tolong .
PERHATIAN
ini kepada seorang lelaki.
kau tidak faham ? aku tak nak tak nak la.
jangan nak paksa-paksa, ugut-ugut la pulakkk. aku anggap kau kawan dan abang ku, tidak selebih itu. aku tidak kisah kau mengatakan ku apa-apa sebab tu aku tidak putus dengan lakie ku , itu TIDAK BENAR.
aku sayang dia sangat-sangat, takkan nak putus?
bodoh . fikir sikit kau tu. aku tidak suka orang yang hanya mementingkan diri sendiri seperti kau tu.ishh.
menyampahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

ada kah dia suruh aku mcm ni," putus jak ngn nya.xda gunanya ya. gus gk ngn mek.mek pat jaga tak. nya xpat. mun tak xmok , emm. xmok mek bercontact or be anyone in your life"
bodoh kan? aku selama ni hanya mengangap dia abg angkat ku , tidak lebih dari itu.
ishhhhhh.x sangka ku nya dakya.

ini diaa, ibuku mengerepak.engerg
"ya allahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. pa nama bilit kau tokkkk?kau pemalass mena !kau tok da blaja x ? mun x , kawen jak trus. x nyusah2. "
-.-''
aku mintak mena2, marahhh

keeya berjalan dengan nenek dia di parkson. sporting nenek dia.hahahaha.
xD


"dear, your the reason i know what's love.:)"