....

happy but confuse.
no matter hard i try to be the one, but i won't work. :(
i don't care, i keep trying.

tired ...i don't know why..
i am not tired of anything.. just tired of my feelings..
=/

i'm sad because SOMEONE told me that SHE kicked me out from performing..
me? silent .

"i wish i could be like the weather, don't care what the criticsm."

stupid lah my sis's ex.
making a fight with my siblings.
remember lahh.. ur friends are our friends lah.
through us, you knew them.

sdr kit lah wei.
wah . sian my sis tasha. huhu. grk dirampas org.
palui punya lah dat girl.
sokay lah lil sis, just moved on lah k? :)..
i noe you will find a better one. :D..

BOREDOM STRIKES ! =.=

my hand allergic now.. sensitive lah..

me: nyesal lap tingkap ert. merah2 tgn ku bahh..
sue: yalah. palui cikgu yah. tegal hal kecik pun knk KONON kerja amal. sehari jak. ahahahhaha.
me: ishh. merah tgn. grrrrrrrrr.

*MENGEPAK*xD

lol.

.. speechless .. have fun..but really feel bad doing the wrong steps..


meyk and me in the bus.
:)
lol.
they keep singing in the bus. lol. ;P

hopeless.

im feeling soo sooo DISSAPOINTED OF MYSELF!
:(
i've feel so bersalah doing the mistake in our routine just now in marching..
i badly wanted to perform just now.. :( but then, i did some wrong steps..
emm..i dissapointed myself and even others..
i tried the best. but why don't i do it properly just now?
i wanted to cry just now coz i did wrong..

i really wanted wanted to perform..
until about 1 hour i was bla-bla-ing " I want to perfrom !!"
until ogy say " stop saying that. before my hand will stay on ur face".
me: no matter what. i still want to perform. i want to try my best.

but whyy i did the wrong mistakes !!?? OMG !!

:(
why can't i do it? damn. i really wanted to not dissapointed them and even me..
but i did.
:( i feel wanna cry while i was marching just now.. :(

i will try my best next time. i don't want make them dissapointed just like this.
i noe they tried their best to help us .. but it make me feel so " bersalah".
all of the hard work , all of the sweats. :(

hmmph.. me and jen and manselin realease our sadness and went to parkson.
shit. we saw a lot of nice dresses. they were talking bout "band night"..
me/ junior doesn't know anything bah.hahahaha.
seems fun . :P

feeling sorry for them..:( coz we dissapointed them..:(

emm..:(

btw, congrats to KEOGAN ! wuhhuuu !:D..

Rawr.:P

lol. i saw this vedeo at my friend's blog.
:P quite funny eyh.
xD

seems like he talk in thailand=.=..
but he is indonesians lah.

my bro took me from school, then.. we went to LUAK MINI MARKET.
his weird=.=..

all the way long to go to mini market, he keep shouting..

"NEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNNNNEEEEEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"


me: shut up.
him: nenen.
me: stop saying that.
him: nenen . nenen . nenen . nenen. nenen. nenen.
*shouting at the woman beside him"NENEN"..

and me?
*tutup muka*

ashamed because of his NENENNESS !
HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHH

paluiness.
having headache bah. my pj shirt i use as my "baju rumah".
lol.:P

stressfull in my head. grr. =/
i hate this. hmm.

tukar TOPIC ! makin sedih lak.

i saw a kid in a car at the mini market. so cute ! so small bah .. hahahahha.
then, he open the wiper of the car. ALL.
then, he open the sicknel. LOL.
then, he open all the window of the car..
lastly, the mom come and scolded him. lol.
sian. nangis nya. ahhahahahha:P

xD lols.

dayout-

"ilovelovelove"

rmbut belom ready gik tok.:P papa ! muka setengah jak ! eee.

we love "HOT WHEELS!" hahhahahhahahahahhah.xD

i feel handsome holding this flower. xD cute bah the fake flowers at "TOYRUS".

i love starbucks !:D

yeay . day out with papa josh, hen.

having fun lah. :) I miss henrieta freaking much ! :D..
first, we went to the bowling and agak ervin there..
mintak duit*

but he only says that he only belanja us watch movie.
*mengepak*

rawr.we thought he will belanja us bah.

he texted josh like this:
"i will belanja you. but not more than 4 people"
tgk2, movie jak nya mok belanja.
eee.

molah mek org geram jak u ervin !:P.
first , papa belanja us rm50 . went to starbucks.

then, i belanja them back at coffee bean. :)my bffl, henrieta. santekk kan?:).

when we were primary, our hair the same bah.
until they say we look the same last time.
but now, MY FREAKING HAIR IS SHORT !

lol. no twin anymore. sobs. :P

sempat gik ambik gambar kedirikpun.. ehe:D

while waiting for papa to choose his baju and seluar, we took some pics lah. ehhee. :D
fun bahh taking pic together.
so, we chit chat something lah.hehee.
sharing storries is fun bah.hehehe;D
we both ♥ this pic ! :D. stayel bah. ehhehe. our pose is damn nice. xD
Henrieta:"bai, buncit perut ko. ahhahhahahah. kempis kan kit"

me: " xmok.hahaha. ku syg perut buncit ku !"

ahahahhahahahhaxD

lol. i cut my hair short !:D

lols.xD at least , my head rasa ringan bah.
mun x, hish.

u can see y sweats all over my head when my hair long.
omg.
xD

btw, didn't went to school.
went to doctor CJ . lol :P
nice name, doc.
..
he says that my blood pressure very low and my red blood is also low. omg. shit.
ubat2. grr.:P

rawr. :)

me ♥ this song. :)
cute bah. hehe. :P
funky !
disco disco ! ( follow in the scene's of don't mess with the zohan )

lol>.<

lalalalala~

watdafucks. what happen to my celcom? first, the kredit is Rm 15. then suddenly, the fucking stupid kredits become Rm 0.00

oh SHIT!

grrrrrrxD..
stupid ler..now can't texted anyone using celcom. only can call.
stupid eyh? grr. xD Fu*K !
grr. xP

and now having a headache after listening my mom repeating the "tamil song".
kuch kuch hu tahe. (am i spelling it right?)

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
tum tum takk takk takk.
(the melodi at the first )
ahhahahahhahahhaxD
i can even memorise it. because she been repeating it for the past 4 hours.
watdafucks?

-headache hearing it-

TU. SEN. XD

budak - budak zaman sekarang.
neh. this what we did going for tusyen.
handphones, mp4, and food just need to bring . hahahhahahahahhahha. :P



lol. seriously, the tissue that my mom gave smells good. smells like roses. xD
*kagum*
promote tissue roses !:D

:D
i love va's camera phone ! gimme:P
whoa. dat boy punya hair mcm "p.ramlee" jak . wakkakaka:D

ouh yah. him and the green t-shirt girl couple ouh. didn't realise.
UNTIL , last week, they both ran away from tusyen to dating. hahahahhahaha. paloi bh.
lari lah outside of the house ! not at the teacher's carpark. ahhahahhahaxD

ouh yah.. *molah muka kagum *
the boy and the girl have the same tahi lalat spot on their faces, beside the eyes.
whoaaa. 0.0
but the girl preety eyh .
ahhahaha.
mcm p.ramlee jak lakie yah. xD rambut pun sama . whahahahahahaxD
ouhh yahh ! the boy wearing the black t-shirt.. is my kindergarden class mate ! lol.
lmk tidak jumpa him !
no wonder i was wondering his face look really familiar.

last time i like to play teapot. xD ahhahahahahhaahhahahahaahahaha. fun bah. xD

lols.:)

mata ngantok. sober. xD hahahahahhahahhahaa. D: watdafucks. :D

weee. ~ :D Hard bah editing this. lol. :P

program kesedaran insan. :)

wtf. my hair kembang coz baruk bukak tudong maaa. :P
lol. fun bah that program.
some girls can't pray. so they stayed in a room lah.
**ehem2**

but. we didn't . wawawa ! :D
went to mall. hahahahaha. :)
makan there, minum, lepak2.

talked bout:

why do we fail ?

causes:
-kedegilan
-kemalasan
-tok malas nak nyebut. wahahahah:D
-kawan
-hiburan

nombor 3 terasa xD
waahahhahahahhaha:D

shit. sakit perut drinking
"chocolate and coffee chip shake"

delicious, but cold. BRAIN FREEZE !

x{ hurts.

watdafucks. a lot of the soalan i say yes. wuauahahhahahahaha

example :
pernah kah anda berkurang ajar dgn ibubapa = YA tapi skali jak.
pernah kah anda kurang ajar dgn guru anda = YA.

others? x ingat. ahhahahhah:D

*brain freeze *
grrr. xD

curses the orange.

menahan sakit perut ku. *curses*
shitt ! keep going to the toilet .

and my bro keep angrying me coz every 5 fucking minutes,
here i go running to the toilet screaming " aaaaaaaaaa!!!! sakit perut !!!"
whahahhahahahhahahah:D

shit. nyesal drinking manselin's orange drink.
and you know why?
i forgoten that it was a diet drink. oh shit.
what? it's delicious bahhhhhh.
so i drank it.
and the moral value :

"don't trust oranges diet drinks "
wahahahahahhaha:D

joke.;D

xD

my mata kembang. emphh. coz crying just like hell almost for the whole day.
grr.
xD

now , having a TERRIBLE HEADACHE !
and that's why, i can't go to kawad or band practise.
i walk , feels like want to pengsan. shit.
;/

pening lahhh. grrr.
+
sakit perut

wtf? GRR. :P

really love this song..
♥
really reminds of myself.
is it my life is just a lie or a just illision? (illusi)
sorry i don't really know how to spell correctly. :)

im really confuse with life now.
can't my confusing just stop?
and live more easily?

getting tired each day . because of my damn sakit perut !
grr.

-I Rawr You-

yeah. i stay today. doing nothing. hmmph:p.
my mummy can't pick me up early . ouh shit. and i terpaksa stay today. is ok lah. hehe. :)


I hate bees ! keep following me around at the school compund. grr.

and..


i smashed it with my Mathematics book.
muahhahahaahhahahahhaa.

xD annoying bah it follows me everywhere.
and everyone keep running away from me coz seeing the bee.



example
alyssa: hey !

me: hey ! watcha doing ?

alyssa: aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!! BEEE!!


example no 2.


amy: woi. pa polah kau pok?
me: xda papa. dgr lagu jak. boring ku. huhu.

amy : lebahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! lari ! lari!


-cursing the bee session-


HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA:Dwhoaaa. i saw my old photo ! when my hair is still long . i mean the fridge.
grrr. i miss that hair . :(

and now, my hair short bah. grr. and i need to adjust it to make it just like that.
but IT CAN'T !!!!
grrr.

lelah ler.

"uuuu ! tulang !"

i look weird here. OMG.
:P

ok. ok. i can't go kawad just now. grr.
sakit perut+sakit palak .
RASA MAHU PECAH JAK ASA PALAK !

grr. luckily got panadol inside my bag and it cures a bit.

while i was resting myself.. kelvin saw me..
and he says that.. "watcha doin?"
me: " can't you see?" *no mood*

*quite*

he stupid bah. 0.0
he go walk on the roof of the school. omg.

then, he tertinjak a tulang ikan on the roof. so many eyh the tulang ikan on the roof. omg.

and that, i was wondering " why got tulang ikan on the roof?"

takkan bangau or any birds take ikan and put in on the roof?

btw. i saw a dead "bangau" beside 1archiver class.

it was lying .. the toungue is coming out and it was like.. omg.
shit ! it was damn scary if you can see it. shit. hahahha.
i can't took the picture of it because i was running and screaming when i saw it. xD

whahhahahahahhaha:D

lol. me and my bro. hahahahaxD

actually, we were planning to make a stupid vedeo of us.
then, we saw OUR DARN bloody-full webcam can't make a vedeo.

and it make me want to smash the darn webcam.
but.. just cursing it better than smashing it. xD
wahhahahahahhaahhahah:)

we were using the "wasted things" that our mom thrown.
instead of throwing , so we used it. xD
whahhahahahahhah:D
nice bah her DIOR SUNGLASSES.

but unluckily..
it's other side glasses broke.
u can see it right?
lol. :D

shit. this video damn fucking funny !


shit ! that vedeo damn fucking shit funny ! ahhahahahahahahhahahahahahha.xD
i really can't stop laughing !

i like when it says " pshyeahh".
and " hey bitches"

and now, me and bro keep saying ...

My Bro: hey there. i like your hair.

Me: who does your hair?

my bro : pshyeah. omg


me : hey bitches.

" what a slut . but still i like ur cut"

this part quite funny . ahhahahahahahhahahahah:D

and now, my mom is asking what's the meaning of us hearing that song.
she doesn't care at first until she heard " hey bitch. i like your hair."

MUAHAHHAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHA

aku keliru

menjadi buntu
arah yang ingin ku tuju
rasa resah ku
kian celaru
dengan ilham ku tempuh

aku cuma mahukan
bayangan resah ku akan hilang
tapi keadaan memaksa
menghadapi semua

OO.. OH OO..OH

C/O
Inikah revolusi
atau hanya ilusi
bagaikan mimipi jadi realiti

Rasional diriku
rasional dirimu
penentu masa
masa depan ku

adakah masa
menjadi punca
diriku dalam dilema

benarkah anjakkan paradigma
susuli ku terima

aku cuma mahukan
bayangan resah ku akan hilang
tapi keadaan memaksa
menghadapi semua

love this song .:)

:/ bored.

yeah. it seems quite bored
missing my old gang. henrieta, papaku joshua, isma, javarina, and others.
they made me smile every second of each day.
missing damn damn muchy. :/

wish we could be together at the same school again. haizz.

I need some FUN , JOY , WILD , & more from you guys back. :*(


busy with band practise lately. ;p
a bit tired, but fun.
:D can learn new things. i like to spin and throw my flagxD.
best bah.:P

i want to SHOP !
rindu already with shopping. =.=

usually i shop about
2 weeks, 1 time.
shop till yah drop.
but my mom keep saying ..
" im busy. next time lah bring you shopping"

me: "*sigh*. ok. "

:P
shopping realeases my stress. wahahahhahahahhhahahha:D
miss shopping at nicole , cheetah, applemints, oreef.. huhu.

seeing those mad faces as the pelayan there. whahahhahaha. u noe why?
coz i keep changing my shirts about more than 10x.
surely they are mad.

example :
me: i want size M.
pelayan: ok. wait aa.
*few minutes*

pelyan: nah. this one size M.
me: to big. change. size S.
pelayan : ouh. ok . *making the *hishhh* sound*
*few minutes again*

pelayan : nah.. hopely this suits you.

*smile*

pelayan: *making an unsatisfied face to me.*
me: what?
pelayan : nothing.

no wonder they are mad.:P

muahahahahahaah.>:]

lolies;P

You must answer the questions only one word.
1.) Name?
= ceeka
2.) Single or Taken?
= Taken
3.) At 1pm you were at?
= band
4.) Last text msg u received came from?
= henrieta
5.) Last comment u received from friendster came from?
= marsha
6.) Last person who called you?
= mom.
7.) Last person you saw?
= bro.
8.) Love is the sweetest thing around? Yes or No?
= yes.
9. Last song you heard?
=kiss
10. WHO IS IN UR MIND NOW?
= nya.
11.) last thing you ate?
= sayo.
12.) How many schools you have been to?
= 3
14.) The "thing" you first saw at ur right?
= krusi
15.) Person you love?
= him
16.) Lust is different from Love? Agree or disagree?
= idk.
17.) Worst Fear?
= ulatbulu
18.) Jollibee, Mcd, or KFC?
= Mcd
19.) Love or Money?
= Love
20.) in love? yes or no.
= yes
21.)Friends or Lovers
= both.
22.) Favorite Subject
= English.
23.) Time Right Now?
= 911? :P

MAUHAHAH:D

HAHAHAHA . XD
va.. how dare u say like that !:P

MDM TENG PRONOUCED VA'S NAME : BAYANA

ahhahahah. xD

RAWR. :)

my stomach hurts . hmm.
it getting hurt each time. and now.. it is still hurt. shit. :/

yay . YINHOO!!! :D i love dat book so much.
can oder a lot .. alott..AND ALOT
of cool stuffs. :)
lols. :D

here comes new things when i odered it. lol :P

bored. tomoro praktiz band. missing my CG flag. :P

bullshits. xD

VAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what do u mean ?? grr.:P joke2. hahaha:P

crazy quintila. she slap my.. err. a*s.
gtl=.=
grr. hahhah.

buhsannnnnnnnnnnnnn melandaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~:P.

rawr. what the hell my ps teacher?
he keep poking his nose . oh shit. hahahhahaD:

zakiah : look . what is he doing?
me: ouh yeah. u noe what is it.
zakiah: wwhahahhahahhha
me: cibey u. *MunTah*

hahahahahahhhahhhaha:D

im tired of these.:(

im tired of all these oredi !..
just faking my smile all these while.
just faking my answer whether i am ok or not.

:(

im coming .:)

i really like her hair ! ouh shit ! damn gorgeous.
why do all scene style so gorgeous ! :D

gonna be a scene style but still indie. lol. :P

what? indie is almost the same with scene bahh.:P

ehehehe:D