Shit happens

I never knew that first love would hurt a lot.
i never knew that you would leave me.
i never knew that you would not love me anymore.
i never knew... you broke our promises...

What has happened to us?
is it all are just lies or your beautiful words so that i would fall in love with you deeply like this till i can't let you go ?

I need you to know. even i'm not the one that you in love with no more, the one that you loved .
is ok, i am ok with that. but you need to know, i still love you with all my heart.
i know that you wouldn't have a big smile reading this or even a laughter, maybe a angryness in ur heart or whatever.
Idon't care, i can't keep anything to myself.
it is to ... full.

I was crying each night. to remember you.
i was crying each night.just to feel your presence.
i was crying each night. just want to let everything go from my heart.
but not ...
YOU.

I just wish that everything would go back.
but. maybe it's reality, you would not.
:(

And that's the hardest thing that i ever accept.
you wouldn't.